Burnout

My stay in Paris didn't go as well as I hoped to. :/

Trying to work full days at office made me really realize the fact that I'm burnout. :(

After being very passionate and involved in the Mandriva community since 2001, it really sucks when I have to decide to cut down my involvement considerably.. I've been for a long time now having medical difficulties which has affected me in really bad ways. I've had more and more problems getting any actualy work done and been more and more stressed and frustrated about what I haven't done. From medications I've been already made quite antisocial and a bit depressed, but with all stress and frustrations from what I constantly feel guilty about now doing it has made it all worse..

As my last semestre at university was over and I was finished with projects, I hoped for things to be resolved by switching medications and also to just get into work full time at structured office environments, unfortunately this only made it worse when I've been at office working full time and getting even less done. Lately it's just been hard to do stuff and I've only done some every now and then when I feel like it, but now I feel tired and frustrated even when doing the simplest things that really hasn't been any problems in the past..

Sitting and have everything figured out in your head about how to do something and see that you should be able to do it in no time is so incredibly exhausting and frustrating when you still isn't able to do it.. :/

So I'll get visit from my girlfriend on monday now, then we'll enjoy holidays in Paris for next week in stead, before leaving after a week to get back home and relax and enjoy the rest of the summer in the sun, hopefully getting in shape to start on new studies for master degree in computer science. :)

Also I hope to stop by LSM a couple of days next week, so I sure hope to see some of you there! :)

Btw. I put up tons of packages that I maintain up for adoption, I sure hope some of you will take care of my precious ones!

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